Sean McAdam: Red Sox' Willson Contreras is grieving for his home country — and can’t hide his emotions
BOSTON — Like many of his Venezuelan countrymen, Willson Contreras is living a waking nightmare and has been since last Wednesday when two earthquakes struck his homeland, killing thousands with tens of thousands more still unaccounted for.
During the day, he makes phone calls and texts family and friends. Sometimes, before games, he ventures outside Fenway Park and personally collects contributions for the relief efforts.
When game time comes around, the Red Sox first baseman seeks an escape, hopeful that the next two and a half hours can serve as a distraction. It is, after all, just a game.
But Contreras can’t separate the harsh reality from the competition. Sometimes they can’t help but intersect.
Contreras was the absolute focal point of the game between the Red Sox and Washington Nationals Monday, a game in which he participated for just two innings.
In the first, Contreras launched a three-run homer in what would turn out to be a 6-3 Sox victory, their fifth straight. After making contact, Contreras flung his bat skyward and looking at his home dugout, pounded his chest repeatedly, energizing his teammates.
“I wasn’t feeling good the whole day. I was really kind of down, sad,” said Contreras. “I hit the homer and the first thing that came out of my mouth (on the way to first base) was ‘Venezuela,’ ‘’
Minutes later, TV cameras caught Contreras sobbing in the dugout, alone with his thoughts about his home country and the tragedy that struck there.
Some people can grieve in private. In uniform, on the field, Contreras isn’t allowed that luxury.
“It’s not easy to hide,” conceded Contreras. “It’s not easy just to show up and play with everything that’s going on.”
Contreras was asked why the homer — majestic as it was, belted over everything in left — triggered that sort of emotional outburst upon his return to the dugout.
“Because I feel like I could be there helping people,” said Contreras, “and I can’t do that. The homer just represents something that I prayed to God to happen because that’s the only thing I can do for Venezuela right now, physically.
“So many people have died and it’s not easy to be dealing with.”
From the first week of the season, Contreras has been the Red Sox’ best hitter, which might sound to some as faint praise. But Contreras is legitimately enjoying the best season of his career. He leads his team in homers, RBI, slugging percentage and virtually every significant offensive category.
He’s also, even in better times, their most emotional. When he is brushed back, he’s quick to anger and challenge the opposition. During the recent series with the Yankees, he barked at Cam Schlittler and helped incite a war of words that featured dugouts and bullpens emptying.
Without apology, he later admitted that he was trying to spark his teammates and turn up the intensity of a rivalry gone flat.
Particularly in the absence of the injured Trevor Story, he has assumed the role of team leader — after all of three months tenure.
And now, he finds his emotions being split between his obligation to his country and his duty to his teammates. It is not an easy path to navigate. His loyalties are inexorably divided.
“Of course I like to help the team win and that’s good,” he said. “But I think every homer from now on is going to be for the Red Sox and Venezuela.”
Occasionally, the emotions boil over. When Contreras came to the plate in the second inning, he was rung up on a check-swing. First base umpire Nic Lentz denied the appeal, and when Contreras tapped his helmet repeatedly on his way to the dugout, Lentz saw it as a sign of disrespect and ejected Contreras from the game.
In the confusion, Contreras was unaware that he had been thrown out, only learning it from teammates in the dugout well after the fact.
By then, the Red Sox were comfortably ahead 5-1 and on their way to another victory. But for the final seven innings, Contreras, in the home clubhouse, found himself without the distraction of the game.
This spring, during the World Baseball Classic, Team Venezuela helped serve as a salve for a country dealing with political turmoil.
“Everybody was happy, even though the situation was bad,” he said.
Now, the stakes are far greater, literally an everyday matter of life and death. Contreras finds himself with one foot in his job, another back home.
“It’s my country,” he said. “I can’t turn around and look in a different direction just because I live here. That doesn’t make any sense to me. That’s why I’ve been outspoken from Day One because that’s the place that I was born and that’s the place I would like to go back to in the future.”
Contreras allowed that the games in which he plays can act as something of an escape for him, however briefly.
“But the thoughts about Venezuela are not going away,” he said. “At the same time, I have a responsibility to perform, to be there for my teammates and do the best I can help to the Red Sox win.”
The games continue. So, too, does real life. Willson Contreras tries to pay his respects to both.
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